Day One

Today was wonderful.
And very draining.
Today was probably day one of what will be one of the most intense times of my life to this point. I am realizing that building relationships and pouring into people is very cool. It is being like Christ. And with that said, it is something I cannot do by my own strength or emotional or mental capacity. I have no other source from which I can pull the strength I'm going to need. What's more this is not a fill-up once a week or even once a day. No, this reliance is going to have to be moment by moment. This is a cool place to be, but for the control freak in me, it's also difficult. I don't control as much of my life. While I definitely still have free will to choose what I want to do and don't want to do, it is easier to do and go where God wants (or maybe what he wants is more clear). The decision itself is easier anyway. Acting on that decision is difficult to say the least but also incredibly rewarding.