My head and heart are in different places again.
As I watch friends being pursued by great, Godly guys and start romantic relationships, it is an honest struggle to be happy for them. I had a hard time with it today, so I went for a run. Sunshine, park, watching dogs. That always helps dissipate some anxiety. After my run, I stopped and just poured my heart out to the Lord. And I realized that I have been believing a huge lie from Satan. My logical response to looking at these friends is to compare their circumstances to mine, and the conclusion that leads to is that I'm alone. What a lie! I'm never alone. Jesus says he is with us always. He has given us a Helper to live inside us. God is omnipresent, meaning all of him is everywhere, all the time. I don't even pretend to understand that, but nonetheless, it is completely contradictory to Satan's lie and completely true. There is power in that.
